Mierren

Raindrops slow the noise. Steady goes the quiet from the sound. Noisy glances from girls and boys trying not to move around. Always looking up then down. Trying not to meet your eyes. Nervous, hyper,  overthinking. To be myself? Or to be wise? Wise then.. Stop slouching when your not alone. Collect the courage to leave your home. Add some numbers in your phone and maybe make some friends Who's realities aren't questionable. Stop. Focus. Reality. Back to your pretty eyes. You smile pressing straw to lips and the ground is my disguise.   You ask me what I'm thinking. I peek. You really want to know? I stop and imagine all the bad ways ex

I played air guitar with Death today. I joined a pretend band. Amelia on the drums, Fat tony plays the bass and Death dances on the stand. We played for an abandoned prom and kids who's date's might be their moms. Amelia rocked her favorite songs off a barely charged phone. Death was jumping up and down shouting never going home. Fat Tony Played on his knees, so I too played on mine. I think my solo stole the show, but he'd say the same in kind. I remember the salt in tears, balloons, and Fat Tony's fears. All Amelia's glances. That the stage was wet from punch and sweat.. And that Death cries when she dances.

I regret my lateness, For the date you never knew. The words we never shared, I think we'd have a few. But I was too consumed with the world that was me And arrived to an empty table, of a book and chai tea.

Shun the blue sky It lies. It lies. In shades to hide my cocaine high. A taste to buy the sun. Such fire wasted on my breath, the loud that’s in my lungs. Sheath the death at desperate glee, see me thee who all I be. Blame the purple moon.

I was drowning in the sky, as I breathed the ocean blue. Crushed beneath the somber high, on a rooftops secluded view. A cloud rose within my chest. I sighed it into air. It bloomed a darkened swirling mess, Then left a twisted prayer. As I sank up the currents peak, I broke the surface of the sky. Ripples spread across its creek, a dark haze seeps my eyes. The Suns heat pricks my skin, now all the air is gone. Remnants of a clouded grin, I awaken in the dawn. I wake up on the roof, The air had made me pale but I don't breathe in. I exhale.

I opened a window, the wind was strong and rough. This letter must be infinity I feel the sky has called my bluff. Either I cannot profess my feelings, or just that words are not enough. so I took a little time. Folded you In between confessions, found the words to rhyme And stated my regression. See I'm still here.. With this weight and my fears. I wish I could say I escaped through that window That I am not the same Writing these letters hoping you'll find them Through these paper planes.

If I could draw a picture, i'd make the best of me. Sketch a draft for scripture, just for you to see. I'd show you how I smile, redraw and shade my eyes and hide away the details, While shading in the lines. I'd focus on the meaning and means with every mark. Make myself the shadow, of a pure reflected dark. Contrast would be the title, Oh how nice it'd be to see. To compare the pure untainted paper, to the shaded and sketchy me.  Then they see it clearly, their faces bitter and tart. They'd take my pencil dearly, and erase me all apart.

They say when Alice fell she didn't care. All deflections reflected in. The looking glass made bare and thin. Throughout the whole affair, she dared to blame a single hare. and despite her fate of sadness. She was simply late, to meet her madness..

I shot a bullet at the ground. It hit my shadow and it fell down. Writhing it slowly faded away, I don't shoot bullets to this day..

The world was small that day. When it went not dark, but grey.. and we had no remarks. Trapped from the rain at the sheltered part. from the edge of mundane a small world was ours. for seconds or hours afraid to blink and miss it all, we stood among our worlds rise. and let the silence dream it's fall.. So if you feel another world, drop gently with the rain. trapped in that quiet place, with they who feel the same. Don't speak. take it in take it all you're gonna miss, when the world was small.